Exploring my Mind Traversing the Void: Welcome to Lifeatside
“Lullabies and Lullabies to take me through the Void. It’s so dark around, such peace and quiet. My mind & heart wander here to seek what is unknown and infinite.”
“Traversing through the void, into nothingness I shall go.”
Two quotes I have been writing and changing/improving over the years going through different phases of my life as I grew to be the person I have become now. I started writing both of them to understand myself over time and wrote what I deeply felt and kept adding to it as I grew.
“Lullabies and Lullabies to take me through the Void”:
The first line –
“Lullabies and Lullabies to take me through the Void”
Symbolizes the role of music and books in guiding me through various stages of my life. I wrote this line as I worked to understand my mind and emotions. Music of all genres, including Pop, Rock, Heavy Metal, Country, Indie, Rap, Retro, sad songs, happy songs, motivational songs, classical Piano and Violin pieces, lofi, and more. And reading books satiated the hunger for knowledge inside me, took me across different fictional words, and fictional lives, and helped me comprehend knowledge across domains as well as taught me multiple things about how to live a life. Music became a source of comfort while books became a source of knowledge while also acting as a teacher.
This line reflects my journey to find answers to life’s big questions while processing the darkness within me, and music has always acted as a lullaby, soothing me along the way. And books being a teacher and a source of knowledge which I so desperately seek.
The second line –
“It’s so dark around, such peace and quiet”
Came to me as I started confronting many questions that scared me. I knew that finding answers would be like traversing the void and often gave me panic attacks. But with the help of lullabies and support, I found solace and peace in the quiet darkness of the void. The fear of not finding an answer turned into a sense of peace and calm.
In the last part –
“My mind & heart wander here to seek what is unknown and infinite”
Came to me as I actively searched for ways to improve my mind and fortify my heart to wander into the unknown void. Knowing that what I sought was unknown and had no end, that I may lose myself forever till I exist. But stopping won’t help and there is nowhere to go back since I am already inside the void. Thus, my curiosity and both my mind and heart, through logical thinking and emotions, search together for unknown answers in an infinite space, never knowing if the answers even exist for what I seek.
“Traversing through the void, into nothingness I shall go.”:
The second quote –
“Traversing through the void, into nothingness I shall go.”
Was something I wrote to define my wandering. While writing it I felt pure darkness and emptiness. I felt that nothing really mattered as I am already in the void and will just erase myself out of existence by going into nothingness while looking for the answers I seek, mostly in a self-destructive sense.
But as I grew after writing, this also has come to have another side to it. That I am willingly and knowingly entering into the void. While trying to seek a deeper understanding of existence and meaning, or embracing the unknown and the absence of material things. While also implying a sense of determination and purpose in the journey that I have chosen for myself.
Overall, this also conveys a sense of will, courage, and the desire to understand the unknown and the concept of existence and also the darker aspects of it which going on a path like this comes with. Though a small sentence, I feel that it captivates the duality of my state of mind while following the unknown infinite path.
Conclusion:
In conclusion, these two quotes have become a part of my journey as I continue to traverse through the void. They represent my thoughts and emotions during different phases of my life, as I search for answers to the unknown and infinite. While this journey can be filled with fear, uncertainty, and darkness, it can also bring a sense of peace and purpose.
It’s not always easy, and there will be moments of pain, loneliness, and the feeling of giving up. But, I want to leave a message for my future self to always come back to these words and remember that I am not alone on this journey, all my experiences and myself will always be standing there till the end. No matter how lost and depressed I may feel, these quotes will serve as a reminder of my courage, determination, and desire to understand the unknown.
